When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

This is my blog where i could express how my life goes. Im exactly 15 in 9days time. The biggest present for me is wishes from the people whom i used to love and treasure them so much. Tomorrow is the starting of Ramadhan. I don't wish to cry fr this one solid month. I don't want to waste tears fr the matters that are not worth. Im trying to be strong and i guess, i am one here still. I don't wish to keep enemys and tryna make up problems. I don't wish to make any single one i knew hurt and disappointed in me. I always pray fr the better and continue to live life with happiness. Everybody have their own ways of living and perhaps, everyone do hate people who actually interfere their life or something. People may hate me fr all they want but i never regret having the greatest people who accept and treasure me for who i am. I don't know why but i wanted to say sorry if i've had done anything wrong to anyone of you. Yes, i mean it. I know my wrongdoings and maybe, there's too much mistakes that i could not actually point out where i went wrong. Forgive and Forget? I do accept forgiveness but to forget may take forever coz the past is where i kept as memories. Life will never be perfect and thats the reason why people go through ups and downs in life. Which ever difficult ways to overcome it, im sure they could find their best way to move on. I have to admit that sometimes, im upset on how other people think negatively about me when actually, they do not know which are the right facts. People sees only from their eyes, they judge with what they see. They do not know the real stories and thats where, they get the wrong impression. However, im patient enough to accept whatever they have to say. What goes around, comes around right? Only God knows how i actually felt and the life im living now. (': Besides this, in this teenage life im sure people are falling in love. I believe what my mum says. This is all puppy love? Hah, ya. I could love someone so much now but in the end, we lose them. We always had promises to someone we love, "I love you forever, be with me forever. I'm always there for you always. I'm here to be with you whenever you're down. I don't want to be separated with you. I will never leave you. and many many many sweet talks. " these just words that could put a smile on your face fr a moment. Eventually, this words don't come true. Im in love with someone fr 283days. I promise him to be with him foreva. Yes, that word that always come across my mind whenever we're in love. We always thought we could be freva and i told him i could be his first and the last. I told him i will never leave him. See all the words i've said? All empty ones. Why did i said that and i didn't make them true? why did i leave him finally? ya, love is not easy. So now, i don't wish to be in a relationship. Like what Haidar told me, find one when you're in poly? hehe, maybe hor. love comes naturally. love is blind. It don't matter how tall, short, young, old, fat, thin, dark, fair and all that matters is the heart. If you love fr someone, go for it. Maybe it could be one the best memories you can have in life. yes, i have to say im in love with someone and im not ready to go any further. i want to remain the way i am now. being single and spent time with the love ones. coz i know, being in a relationship will be a waste of time to shed tears and most importantly, jealousy. nah, i still have years to live in life. i really want to spent this life with awesome family, girlfriends and boyfriends. i know whats the best fr me, people may think negatively, coz they always sees and hear. They don't sense and feel how i felt. how i wish i could be young forever. having you now don't feel me lonely. i need them from a boyfriend and i get from you. i really love how i could express everything out here. thank you, euphoric-seventhoughts.blogspot.com and maybe, i have to leave you one day and get with a new one.

with love,

NurZayanah♥

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